A Promise to My Friends

Have you ever noticed that it is easier to make good on a promise to a friend than it is to make good on a promise to yourself? Is that a good trait or bad? Is it a woman thing or not?

Either way, that isn't really the subject of this post...

I promised at least one friend and received counseling from another about making these entries for my memoirs. And funny thing, I told a third friend just this afternoon that I don't believe in making new year's resolutions. Because I believe they are done with little thought and usually wind up making us feel like failures. So why bother, I can do that any time of the year.

However, against my better judgement, I have now found myself up to 3 New Year's Resolutions with one day left to go. So here they are...

Diane's 2008 Resolutions

1. To begin earnestly making attempts to date, with the idea being that I will stop getting hung up on guys who pay no attention to me.

2. To make daily journal entries on my blog site, even if it's just 30 minutes a day (right Carrie?). Therefore setting me up to actually compile and complete my memoirs.

3. To read daily in books or articles, but to actually practice my speed reading techniques that I have been dying to try out.

So starting today, December 30, 2007, the second to the last day of this miserable, pathetic year in my life, I will be recording my daily journals, and or catching up my journals from this past year. However you choose to look at it, I will be forcing myself to do something that I love and that I owe to myself, but only because my friends made me do it.

Funny how peer pressure works sometimes. BTW, I have wonderful friends.

My Blog Foreward

This is my first entry. I'm am writing this blog so that I can track all the emotional ups and downs that I face on a daily basis. There is so much that I could just throw down on paper, and when my brain tries to figure it all out it causes such an overwhelming hurt in my head becasue I'm still trying to absorb it all.


My current status:

I'm 33 years old, living in Tulsa with my two children. I am living in the remains of what used to be the life all my friends envied. I reside in a my beautiful dream home which I can no longer afford and will probably lose.

My Navigator, a gift from my ex-husband, will soon be repossesed so I'm driving my dad's Lincoln Towncar. My two beautiful daughters constantly asking why we can't go out to eat, or have a big birthday party like we once did. It's a huge adjustment for them, and for me as well. And I haven't even begun to talk about my business or subsequent bankruptcy that I am still swimming through.

I am trying to create some sort of time line to be able look back and catalog all the various stages of life that I have gone through over the last 5 years. I had no idea 5 years ago in November that I was litterally approaching the top of the rollercoaster drop and about to plunge into the craziest ride a strong minded business woman would never have imagined in her wildest dreams.

You are more than welcome to follow the ride, provide input, learn from my mistakes and basically be entertained.